Have just finished the third volume of memoir by Kathleen Raine, The Lion's Mouth - where she tells the story of her relationship with Maxwell. Poet, scholar and mystic, she tells their story in often harrowing detail. She was introduced to Maxwell when his fortunes were at a low ebb after the failure of his basking shark fishery on Soay, and encouraged him to turn the experience to advantage by writing his first book, Harpoon at a Venture (1952). Away from their shared interests in the West Highlands she and Maxwell moved in different circles - he, aristocratic by birth, even escorted Princess Margaret on occasion, she associated with her fellow poets and artists, and researched and taught at Cambridge. She came to terms, or thought she did, with his homosexuality, which meant they could never be lovers, which meant his brief marriage (after the breach between them) was deeply wounding.
There is the cruellest of twists right at the end, when towards the end of his life during a brief reconciliation in Greece (he was staying with his brother, she with a friend), she showed him the manuscript for this book. He was horrified at the portrayal of their relationship, making her realise how deeply she had misunderstood their relationship. She had thought she was the most important figure in his life - she learnt she wasn't.
She was equally wounded by the way she was treated in Raven Seek Thy Brother. She was hurt at the lack of any acknowledgement in person or in his writing of her contribution to the Camusfeàrna idyll, even when he played her the theme song from the film whose title, like that of the book, came from her poem. She was warned by friends from early on - "Gavin does not love you". From having been, as she thought, the established figure helping him in his hour of need, it was she who became the needy one as he grew more successful and distant. Her part in the death of the first otter was the point of no return.
She is unflinching in her portrayal of herself and her failings, devastating in the poetic insight with which she unpicks everything that happened between them. Times and dates are rarely mentioned - this is a memoir of the soul, perhaps the most devastating work of autobiography I have ever read.
There is the cruellest of twists right at the end, when towards the end of his life during a brief reconciliation in Greece (he was staying with his brother, she with a friend), she showed him the manuscript for this book. He was horrified at the portrayal of their relationship, making her realise how deeply she had misunderstood their relationship. She had thought she was the most important figure in his life - she learnt she wasn't.
She was equally wounded by the way she was treated in Raven Seek Thy Brother. She was hurt at the lack of any acknowledgement in person or in his writing of her contribution to the Camusfeàrna idyll, even when he played her the theme song from the film whose title, like that of the book, came from her poem. She was warned by friends from early on - "Gavin does not love you". From having been, as she thought, the established figure helping him in his hour of need, it was she who became the needy one as he grew more successful and distant. Her part in the death of the first otter was the point of no return.
She is unflinching in her portrayal of herself and her failings, devastating in the poetic insight with which she unpicks everything that happened between them. Times and dates are rarely mentioned - this is a memoir of the soul, perhaps the most devastating work of autobiography I have ever read.
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